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February 27th, 2008
 | 12:07 am - hear me as i am
im not gonna write you a love son, a love letter, a notification letter.anything.
im not gonna pretend that i care about what is happening or what is going to happen.
because now,im so tired.sick and tired of all the unconvincing rumour.
im afraid,one fine day,i might just come right up and bitch slap the person (or better people)
yes,because number one,i dont give a damn abt your life.
number two,i am not nosing in your life or better,your personal matters.
number three, you( or you people) do not have the right to even say anything.
number four, stop pissing people off.
number five, get a life.
above all the reasons stated,please realize that your opinion is not needed neither wanted to be hear or even being spread around.so,stfu and start minding ur effing business.
on a lighter note, submission(S) tmr and the essay is finally ove. i repeat OVER!
yesssah!
so,bbq cum picnic with crazy friends!
and family chalet is coming up.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/angry.gif) cranky
Current Music: lovesong-sarah bareilles
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February 11th, 2008
| 10:23 pm
think of all the good times we had.
the laughters,the tears but especially the joy and light that you bring in my life.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sad.gif) depressed
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| 02:07 pm - forget it.
this is such a fcuked up post whereby everything is fcuked up and from all the fcuked up things
that happened its more fcuked up than you would ever think my fcuked up life would be.wat the fcuk am i talking and why the fcuk are you reading but not understanding.
fcuk fcuk fcuk.
im gonna stop it and gonna get the fcuk out of here!
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January 31st, 2008
| 02:44 am - this is what you want-do it for me now.
i dont get it.why the fuck do i even bother to look at her profile when i know it will hurt my feelings.
fuck. i am always in such a shit.
i think this time it is really time to let go.
i mean,this is bullshit and full of crap.i dont see the point.
well,now i realized.whatever word that you said was from her.
and i just realized that.JUST! damnit.
why i am so vulnerable and naive.
why does this happen to me?
tell me why???????
fuck it..this is complicated and i on't even noe a way of solving it
besides getting hurt now.
well, i need a smoke.
and its 2.50 am in the morning and i haf to wake up at 6.
fuck,sch is such a pain in the ass.its very far.
and i now dunnoe whatthehell i am supposed to do.
i think i've viewed her like 568964 times in a few weeks.
yes,that much.yes.
i am so deprived and stressed out.
i really need a time off...from everything, every single shit that happened in my life.
yes,all of it.start a new, move to a new place maybe.
change job,maybe.
new place,new work, new company.new life,maybe!
fuck,im going down for a coling walk.
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: everything's magic- angels and airwaves
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January 29th, 2008
| 08:16 pm - looking away
i am sooooooo having a bad bad bad headache.
felt like vommiting.
class was pretty cool.as always.amanda is great.
anw,we finished class at 12 and then we didnt know where to go
so eat and laugh our hearts out like normal.
today was a bad day for my girlays,including me.
but,mai,jannah and ting went to see mish2.
i hope she is ok..anw,i didnt follow but then went to store to do my work.
and yes, i did my work wif jess and onn.
then nic and ama came.nadiah and jumar too.
well,things are not that okay.
i just don't wanna talk about it.
i dont want a conversation
i just wanna cry in front of you.
i dont want to talk about it coz, i'm in love with you.
chins up and ready to go.
i am in need of money,seriously ahhhhhh...
but actually not so.planning to cut down my addiction.
yes,try k. and i haf to finish up my work and get ready for submission.
now i am confused,submission on fri or monday?
someone enlighten me pls?
anw.yes farahashlinaaaa i miss hanging out wif you..
yes darlings gombrengg i miss you all toooo.
hangouts SOON!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/sick.gif) sick
Current Music: fall into peices-avril lavigne
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January 26th, 2008
| 01:48 am - headaches and more headaches.
it was a pretty interesting day today.seems like i'll be spending most of my time
doing sch work and work. pretty amusing that the person u most love is not there to
actually be with you. depressing,yes indeed.
but,being treated like someone unimportant hurts the most. it's really up to you and
no one can make the decision for you.there you go once,twice but now its the third.
yes,blame me for all i did.it was my fault but now,u are talking wif her.and guess what i think
things won't change.What do you really take me as? just a freaking joke in your life. i love you,i do
but since all these happened nothing can change how i feel about you now. things change and feelings
fade.. and i guess that is what that is happening between us.
well,all i can say is that,i can't bear the thought any longer.
i donnoe what to do,where to go, who to talk to or even better what to say.
everytime something happy happens the thought will come back to me again.
fuck! forgoodnesssakes,i dont understand a single thing that is happening now.
in every aspects of my life,i have never felt such a way i am this period of time.
feeling very down and messed up in my life.
school is hard enough.handling a job is harder.
but to have all these problems are not handle-able.
seriously,i just wish sometimes i could run away and fly away to somewhere safe
and not think about everything.i bet everybody feels the same way.
but sometimes i take risks which are unnecessary. seriously not necessary at all.
now,certain people are angry about how i feel abt them.fuck lah.
dont be a fucktard can? urghh!
i am sooo tired of hanging out with all this kind of people.like seriously,wtf lah.
returning my calls are dat difficult.returning my sms are difficult too.
better off not to haf a hp.lastly,learning to respect a girl is the first thing that u should do.
lower your ego and fucking respect her.no means no sucka.
im so tired.im so bummed and tired.im off.
don't go to bed mad,stay up and fight.
fight with who sialll!
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January 25th, 2008
January 18th, 2008
January 17th, 2008
| 01:57 pm - angelbell.
guess what?
i am at clarke quay's burger king,
sitting all alone with my lappy and my mushroom swiss meal trying to finish
up all my fries and all and oviously,tying to act cool.hahaha.(maybe the guy a the counter thinks i am crazy)
so,i decided to switch to livejournal coz the template is more clean finish and i love it.
and now i am waiting for the rest of the girls to come. thinking how bored this may seem;actually it is not
that boring sitting here typing in an entry when 2 lembuts are sitting beside me gossiping just like a girl.
ohmygod,he even sound like a girl.ohkayy..
truckloads of things have been happening and i cant even imagine what the hell am i to do with my own life.
hopefully things would get all better and normal.i miss all my gfs and i hope we would meet up soon.
so,things have been hectic in school too as we have 2 major projects now..on a lighter note,my lovelies have
been making me smile all day long with the funny dream mairah have and all the funny techno trance moments in class together.that was really funny.it's the cool shiet ya'll! hahaha.
now,i think i just wanna chill and just let things past me by.what's the point of really rushing and worrying abt
things.all i know we all had some misunderstandings and things are getting better.i love them for loving me.
now i know why it was that way...because certain things i dunt even noe myself. so here goes my newwwww
journal,all for you.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/smile.gif) relieved
Current Music: smile-lily allen
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